silk lily speaking: Morning thoughts

As soon as I acknowledge how blessed i am at any sort of thing that could be as big as a job or as small as an earring  it goes away the thing about me is that as soon as i start getting attached or vocal about my satisfaction the blessing goes away or maybe it just turns  into something else bigger that fits the bigger picture something more mature that would serve me later however that's a bit hard to understand when my heart is heavy with loss 

Now I won't ever stop being thankful for everything for the opportunity to wake up and have another day closer to my dreams for the easy painless breaths for the days i am suffocated by anxiety because when i am not anxious the world is a part of heaven 

Most importantly i am blessed to be here among my loved ones able to express said love with words and hands i am happy that day by day i learn to accept rather than control.

"Lord, grant me tenacious winsome courage as I go through this day. When I am tempted to give up, help me to keep going. Grant me a cheerful spirit when things don't go my way. And give me courage to do whatever needs to be done. "

Amen