Angel

My body resides an endless dawn my head is always in the summer. I am a child with the whole world bigger than me I am a child with strong urges to feel that whole world with my fingertips to touch the words your speaking out of your lips and turn them into what they are meant to be. If the whole world is a big painting I am an artwork of my own I am sculpted perfectly so your hands are pleased wherever they fall and my skin will make you see all shades of pink and yellow it'll make you taste the blue in a different way

New years make me nervous the beginnings in general make me nervous. Time scares me to no end it has a firm grip on my little heart sinking it's filthy nails inside it. but i am okay I've always been because i had decided i am not making any promises with myself i am letting it all flow the way it wants .. you see i am choosing that hard truthful path every single day to find myself and i am giving the passionate soul i have right now the love it deserves ..  bonjour big skies you might have control over time over people but i have you above me and that's enough for me Sincerely, your baby girl 

The problem I've always had since i was a kid is that i knew exactly what I wanted .i knew where i wanted to end up .and i knew it was never going to be easy especially when i am dealing with a complex personality such as mine.I didn't know myself .i still don't ,not at all. i just have a few ideas about who i might be. about a softness I've touched many times working ,dealing with people ,with lovers ,painting ,or merely being in contact with nature, being touched by nature. i wished i was more lost .i wished i could stumble freely .fall and be actually happy that i could know things again ,that i could look at it from a different perspective. but then reality hits me hard:the world is always going to be the world it'll never change you'll never change even when you think you are .you are going to face a situation that brings out your true colours thick and messy so you are going to merely adapt to it just how animals and plants adapt to their environment ever...