Angel

A month or so ago I decided that sexual harassment shouldn't be a part of my everyday life it shouldn't traumatize me it shouldn't be the dominant thought when i look at a guy when i walk the streets everyday it shouldn't keep me from wearing what i like I decided that i am not going to excuse harassers i am not going to give them the benefit of the doubt if they don't believe in personal space in consent in respect they shouldn't be a part of my life..  a few days ago i decided that i am classifying judgmental comments and shaming in general as a form of harassment i will not bear the fruit of an inorganic feeling planted by force by the intention of destruction i will not let the bad words get so deep in my mind that they'll manifest themselves at 3am proudly as if they are a part of who i am. this isn't me. I will not tolerate people who don't believe in acceptance in personal differences in mental illness people who don't know what the word c...

مؤخرا بقيت اروح الاتيليه مع احمد كل يوم الصبح و جمب الاتيليه فيه ولد على عربية فول فى سنى تقريبا بيملى السندوتشات و يحطها فى الكيس بسرعة خارقة و هو بيصفر و تديله فلوس يقول لا خلاص و بتاع و انا ببقا عاوزة اديله الفلوس كلها عشان اول ما بشوفه كلمة goals بتنور فى السما بالنيون و بقعد اتخيل نفسي و انا ماسكة لوحة فحم او رصاص و بغمق هنا و اسيب هنا و الاقيها بالقدرة الالهية ظهرت سبحان الله. فكل يوم و انا ماشية جمب احمد اقوله عاوزة ابقا زى الولد بتاع الفول يا احمد يقلى اشتغلى كتير و انا اقعد اتخيل الولد لما كان لسة فاتحها جديد و بيملى السندوتشات بسرعة البنى ادمين عادى و بعدين اتطور و بعدين فكرت اروح اساله اتطور فى اد ايه و بعدين لاقيتها فكرة سيئة و اخر ما اتذكر اخر بنت ذوات فى السينما فتحت كلام مع واحد كسيب من الشارع كان في فيلم احكى يا شهرزاد و خدعها و ولعت فيه بجاز و قعدت تنطط و هربت وانا لو هربت هسيب الكلية و الكتب و الداتا و مش هكون زي الولد برضو فقررت انى اتابعه فى صمت و خلاص

In first grade, a boy named John— a notorious troublemaker—systematically chased every girl in our class during recess trying to kiss her on the lips. Most gave in eventually. It was easier to give in than keep running. When it was my turn, I turned and faced him, grabbed his glasses off his weasel face, and stomped on them on the hard blacktop. He ran to the principal’s office and cried. In fifth grade, I was asked to be a boy’s girlfriend over email. It was the first email I ever received. He actually told me he wanted to send me an email, so I went home and made an AOL account. We went to a carnival and he won me a Garfield stuffed animal, and then he gave me a 3 Doors Down CD. A few days later, he broke up with me, and asked for Garfield and the CD back. I said no. In sixth grade, a girl in my year gave head to an eighth grader in the back of the school bus while playing Truth or Dare. In the summer after sixth grade, I kissed a boy for the first time at sleep away camp. He was my ...

Don't be ashamed to weep; 'tis right to grieve. Tears are only water, and flowers, trees, and fruit cannot grow without water. But there must be sunlight also. A wounded heart will heal in time, and when it does, the memory and love of our lost ones is sealed inside to comfort us.   

3.8.2016 It's a bad day but I've got some money that i am going to spend today i am sick but we can eat until i can get even sicker and i have white little withering flowers scattered all over my bed come love me or tell the universe to do it for you i don't want to be drowned in love so they'd later find my corpse by the end of the day when you go your way and all the love dries up i want to be swallowed consumed whole so not even a single hair of mines could make it to the shore can you do this for me love for the sake of all the good times?