Angel

Your son is not your second chance he's not meant to fight your battles he's not meant to realize your dreams nor be your subject of bragging you are not meant to drag your kid through hell abd back to show off your mad parenting skills and certainly you are not meant to interfere with his life or choose for him... You should teach him how to choose how to be a decisive how to find himself you are his guardian angel : there to help to guide him to charge him with the knowle dge he needs to walk his own path .. Kids are a blessing they give us the chance to relearn things see the world from a much lighter much more innocent perspective but we have to always remember that they are not our second chance we are their first chance to become a decent loving human being and if we did not give them that chance they will have to spend their adulthood fixing what you have broken by ignorance and denial

I’ve been so anxious lately.. i never hesitate for a second to express , to come out with how grateful or how happy i am when i am but it’s harder to say that i am sad or anxious since i feel like i have some watchful eyes waiting for me to show the slightest glimpse of discomfort to lecture me forcefully opening my ears to dump the shit they have been holding against the world in them .. I’ve been holding too much in my chest and an explosion was meant to happen i don’t know whether i own the people that saw me explode an apology or do i own it to myself for forcing myself to do things that are against my nature i am all open i want to remain that way ..there’s nothing to be ashamed of if you know that you’ve done the best you can ..accidents happen ..things pass time passes my life itself is passing and i don’t think i will spend another second of trying to fit into frames that aren’t my own