Angel

Today i am sad I am so sad.. You can see that I've gone past the time when i am grumpy i don't throw fits or chilidish temper tantrums i am just sad. I am not depressed i am jyst so majorly sad i don't want to wake up tomorrow for so many reasons i wish they would close up my chest and end it the way they blind me from seeing the beautiful colors of everything.. I am so sad that the sky is not grey anymore the cars are not all in blue i am so sad that my skin has turned so cold and my tears can be stored for the next drought or maybe used to keep some fish alive which is a pretty thought at least  that way i could be useful..i am so sad that figures are mere shallow shapes and colors are now a few oversaturated blobs escaping the thick black film covering my eyes.. I am so sad that i have abused every single ounce of energy  inside me to not  feel that way but i still do..  I failed...  I am scared and tired and sad so sad

I think that some of the most complicated matters in the world lay nicely in most artists hands as we are more in touch with ourselves and the world than most people living and believing in short termed pleasures and that life is mostly made of days that end while this is a way to look at things it does not give you tge full picture when days are that short you don't think of planting seeds and waiting for them you mostly hunt and eat it all get bloated and not think of upcoming days and the possible hunger that could knock you off your hings.. I think that it's our fault that people are so short sighted i think it's our fault that we do not express ourselves enough i think it our fault that we keep on judging each other and then revolting against closed minds and demanding that we accept difference i think that it's our fault that we hold onto a certain facade a certain look a certain way that the artist must follow and then get dissapointed later when things are not ...