late night stroll

 it's been almost two years since i've last written something in english so for a first in a long while this is not from the archive and it's dedicated to Nourane Amr or as i call her "el 7elwa" and hoda adam  :)




i remember getting high on the sight of the clouds all around me . i believed for a moment that i could touch them now that i am so near and when i couldn't i was dissapointed .. i seeked a hiding in the mountains but  the clouds were still teasing me at the top : everywhere all too close and still unreachable .

 i wanted to strip down to my birthday suit and just lay looking at them . i felt so beautiful at the moment . i really hoped they would be allured and pull me closer .... but they never did they just left me dreaming of a possible meeting marveling the truth of their unattainable nature.

 and from then on i learned that there are many unattainable pleasures such as your lips . for no matter how close you are you are not mine to claim them caress them with mine and i honestly don't want you to be .because unlike the clouds your lips are no gate to your heart but to a pit of emptiness that i am not willing to take a dip in

so i'll never hit the ground too hard again cause while i was trying to reach for the clouds the groud stood to it's place loyal to my steps but i'll walk the streets by night . hide in the woods . lay on the grass all bare getting high on the stars that has blankted the sky . i'll take a dip in the cold rivers thanking all the powers out there for the chances i had for the sight of the diamonds above me . and i'll live on the road in search of a free beauty that could whisk my breath away just like how the clouds did just like how your lips did


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