Silklilly speaking : going against my nature

I’ve been so anxious lately.. i never hesitate for a second to express , to come out with how grateful or how happy i am when i am but it’s harder to say that i am sad or anxious since i feel like i have some watchful eyes waiting for me to show the slightest glimpse of discomfort to lecture me forcefully opening my ears to dump the shit they have been holding against the world in them .. I’ve been holding too much in my chest and an explosion was meant to happen i don’t know whether i own the people that saw me explode an apology or do i own it to myself for forcing myself to do things that are against my nature i am all open i want to remain that way ..there’s nothing to be ashamed of if you know that you’ve done the best you can ..accidents happen ..things pass time passes my life itself is passing and i don’t think i will spend another second of trying to fit into frames that aren’t my own

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