blossoming flower: a diary entry


27.5.2016

So you have the whole world on your mind .ideas that are kicking at your insides showing their colors through your skin they want to be let out but you don't know where you are standing and you can't let them go when they are still so young.
you are pregnant with your lover warmth and reassurance spreads throughout your body from your uterus but you have to hide it because you can't love under the harsh gaze of the widows in your church you can't love when all they'll ask about is where is his father?


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