Desired: what a woman wants what a man feels like

I desire you. I desire only you…. Where are you? I am playing hide and seek with ghosts. But i know i will end up finding you, and the whole world will be newly lit because we love each other, because a chain of illuminations passes through us. — André Breton




As a straight woman I'll talk about what I know: being with a real man is such a privilege and that's because a real man knows what a woman is .what she's capable of .a real man knows his way around. he's not afraid of expressing himself to the woman he wants in all the ways he can but ,while also managing a nice respectable façade.

Yeah, a real man sounds pretty mythical but ,he's real he could be anywhere ,and if you think you deserve one then congratulations.. you do ! and for that you mustn't settle for any less.

After a few umm.. unpleasant experiences I know  what I want to hear, I know what I want to see, what my real man looks like.

My real man is good with his words he uses them experimentally for his privilege and my pleasure .

He's not afraid of letting me know that he wants me

He desires me

Now many men have told me that I am sexy , hot , some even said that I could be irresistible but none of those had made me feel truly desired and it could be either because we are a mismatch, or that some of them don't know how to desire a woman, but think solely of how she desires them ,or how to get the relationship to go faster so they'd move onto the infamous "next step".

One great feminist once said to never trust a man cause they are all hungry. And she was kind of right : most men only want sex ,they go to extreme measures to get you to let go ,let loose. they'd lie about themselves ,claim love ,they'd even use your insecurities against you for the sake of their ego. they were the reason why so many people think that a man needs  to fulfill his "needs" while a woman doesn't, and they used that lie as a getaway whenever they'd cheat or to push some women into being physical if "she truly loves him".

Your real man on the other hand waits. He sees your humanity, your femininity ,he respects your beliefs: your respect for your body and the choices you want to make concerning it .he cares for you and for your presence in his life ,and for all of this he's willing to wait for you to let go on your own accord. he knows the true meaning of consent .

A real man is honest: he's all out there. he sees vulnerability for what it truly is, and he's not afraid of it. he's not afraid of showing you how much he's able to love you. not afraid of being called "whipped" or of people shaming his ways of love expression. He's forward when things go wrong. he knows that nice compliments and a few kisses won't save the day ,but he will .he'll take it on himself to talk the problems out when you are not yourself, and when you are influenced by the famous "women should let things pass" because he cares.

He cares ,that's why he's soft yet still firm and strong enough to trigger your feminine gentle side .rub the dust off the delicate part of you that you've tucked deeply and safely to prevent it from being used. He lets you willingly destroy the walls that you've taken time and experience to build ,once he has gained your trust.

 let me tell you this: when a man desires you, he'll see you deeply .he'll inspect your actions expects  your reactions ,even the violent ones :the days when you are PMSing  ,when you've woken up on the wrong side of the bed ,or when you've had a great fight at work . he'll still be expressing his desire, not because he has to ,not because he's a saint or a fallen angel, but because he wants you for everything that you are .because he wants your dirty sense of humor and the innocent looks you give when he 's said something you don't understand. he wants you when you are serious ,when you are leading your life. he knows that it's not all fun and games. that sometimes you can get too stressed that you'll break down, but he's ready to take that too .he's ready to take your shit because he knows that you are not all about your shit, but that you are full of the world and he's ready to fuck that world in the most compassionate and a mind blowing matter.

He's ready to help you explore yourself through him ,because he wants to explore himself through you .he's ready to turn your body into a heaven .show you new lands of pleasure. reach for the places the spots that no one dared to touch. He sees your body as the masterpiece that it is .he aims to leave you and himself, by the end of every night with no forbidden places not in your mind, soul ,or body.

He's there when you need to share your victories ,your problems. there for a good fuck when the world has turned upside down ,he's there for you to show all your true colors, from the softest to the darkest of them. he's that oak tree you hold onto in the city.  ready to help you with  your heavy bags as you are there to help him with his ,willingly ,deliberately ,passionately .

My real man is sure that I desire him the way he desires me. he lets me see it through his eyes , reminds me of it every time we kiss.

He knows too well the value of both his time and mine ,and that's why he doesn’t waste his time nor mine.